Friday, June 04, 2010

The Blessing of Adoption

We have never regretted our decision to adopt Maggie. She has filled our home with unspeakable joy. Of course there were adjustments and some struggles in the beginning, but overall our experience adopting Maggie has been nothing short of amazing. Maggie is a survivor. Her little heart is still healing, but each day brings about a new opportunity for her to grow, to trust, to love and to heal. Being a part of that has been the most amazing experience of my life. Seeing her change and blossom and learn to love has challenged me in ways I could not have ever imagined. There is beauty in the pain, and mercy in the healing. I truly believe in my heart God is going to use her for something great and that her suffering was not in vain; He will use it for His glory.

We thought we would change a child's life forever, instead.... she changed us forever. I am a better person because of her. She has taught me what it means to love without condition. She opened our eyes to the joy of growing our family through adoption. She allowed us into her heart, despite the fact that everyone else she had ever known abandoned her. She came here so hurt and angry. Before joining our family, everyone in her life let her down; yet she still chose to love. She came here not knowing if we would just be more of the same. She had no idea if we would just bring more hurt and pain, yet each day she chooses to trust us more and chooses to love us.

It is because of her I have more faith. When we entered into adoption, we didn't know where the journey would take us. We had no idea we would end up adopting a toddler out of foster care. We had to get over our fears and put our complete faith in God. I am so thankful we had the faith to bring this child into our home and lives. I have personally witnessed a miracle. I have seen that God can take even the most broken of spirits and mend her with His tender loving care. It has been nothing short of amazing and I would do it all again in a moment.

Our adoption is finalized but there is still much to be done and to be seen. Our journey is not over. Healing is a long process. I am convinced that most people will not know complete healing until heaven. It takes time, A LOT of time. Especially for these little people whose hearts have been shattered into millions of pieces. If that is the one thing I would want people to know who are in the midst of a very difficult season or for those who are entering the adoption process. These children are hurting. They are broken beyond anything we can ever fully understand. It is going to take a great deal of time to reverse their past but there is great hope for little ones full of hope, trust and love.


1 Had Something To Say:

Rochelle said...

Courtney,
This is beautiful! All I can say is THANK YOU for sharing the compassion Jesus has placed in your heart. Maggie is loved by Jesus through your arms in tangible ways!! You are showing Jesus to sweet Maggie!